i breathe music

throughout my life.. music has always been part of who i am.
even when i was as young as 6, i was playing the piano.
some how.. i just love it. 
it is the most beautiful thing ever on earth.
Yesterday, i have released yet another single.
This was totally inspired by my bro Sylvester sim (sly). So how, his song “xi wang 希望” gave me this very very loving feeling. and I seemed to be able to let go out certain negative emotions. What mattered most is that i have given my all and it was a very good memory. With this song, i think i have officially moved on. To be able to look at the memories and smile. To think of no negative thoughts, but the purity of love.
Thank you god, for showing me this. Thank you sly, for inspiring me.
In all honesty, this is my first song that i am truly satisfied with all the arrangement.
I started from scratch. 
Did the drums, then the bass, then guitar, then vocals, the backing, the harmony and all the rap rap thingy. Basically. I really enjoyed the whole process. For a 4 hour job, i really think i am talented la. give me some credits. haha!
While i was arranging it, i thought about my drummer, Bryan. I imagined playing with him. I imagined how he would have interpreted and how he would have approached the song. I produced my own “Bryan”. and. I felt really good about it. haha.
So when bryan came over (to do another recording), i let him listened to the song and i asked if this is what he would have played. Initially, him being bryan, denied the fills and groove. But as the song continued he said “wa. xiang. i am impressed. you actually know me so well.”
Then i sent sly my song. Sly gave me very encouraging comments and it really felt good to be doing this all over again.

why am i doing this?
i dont know.
will i make money out of it?
But am i happy when i am doing it?
yes. very happy in fact.
so will i continue to compose?
you bet.
is the girl in the video my gf?
no. please dont sabo. hha
music is for life yo.
thanks for being in my life.
<3 div="div">
peace out!

looking back at my life. its really quite a drama.
having gone through so much changes in these few years that i have lived.

changing jobs, changing bands, changing countries to work and live in.
I am back to where everything started. Singapore.
Doing what i was supposed to do like all other Singaporeans. To Study and ace the exam.

I may have taken a huge huge detour to get back to this route, but i have never regretted. Because i know i tried. I lived my dreams, even if it is for the slightest of time. To be able to be proud of myself and to tell myself that i gave my all.

It is my closest friends that have kept me going. The very people who have encouraged me to keep going despite all the hardship. and these. are the people that i meet once a year. Amazingly.
Friendship is definitely not defined by the frequency of the meetups ot the amount of well wishes we send to each other. I believe in words that are not spoken. Prayers that i say for each other. Positive thoughts. never did they put me down. never had they forsaken me.

When i was doing my music. My VS friends stuck w me through all the hardship through all my whatever-bullshit-crazy life style. I am thankful for them. although they dont understand it, they are there for me. I know it. and i love them dearly like true real brothers.

Now, i am back to doing sports. My musician friends give me the space and time to train and to race. Nevertheless, wishing me the best in all races and never blamed me for not meeting them as i need to turn in early daily.

I am very very blessed.

What will my life be without this 2 main group of people.. i can hardly imagine. For they are people that i love, i care and am willing to go all out for. and they are people who i am very very proud of. They are the people who have accepted me for my flaws and love me for who i am. and the same goes around.

Just feeling a little emotional now. think my screw is loose again. haha..