i’m just a very simple girl that want to lead a simple life ;  there’s so much things going on .  i really dont know if i’m able to cope  . being in the adult society is really not easy at all . i’ve finally graduated from my studies . & now , i’m no longer a student unless i choose to pursuit for my diploma. but i guess i wont be pursuing my studies yet . i might be going out to work first. maybe for a year or two ? after that i will be signing up for my private courses . what can i do in th future ? i’ve no idea yet . really have no idea. had been rather stress by lots of stuffs recently .

sometimes i really wonder , why people tends to push the blame to others when they are the one at fault ? is this really in the human nature ? no matter how much hurtful words tht i’ve taken in , i know tht in the end , they still care . i just want to let them know tht no matter how much you both are starting to earn now , it cant bring your character to another level . reason is simple , but i dont think tht anyone has realise yet . both are starting to be arrogant and things are always being taken for granted . think about it . things tht they’ve said and stuffs . it’s really v hurting . i’ve no idea how to tell them , i’ve no idea how can i let them know what they are doing is really wrong now . i know they wont listen , because they always thought tht they’re right . i know , different perspective , but are you even listening and finding out what’s wrong and what the fuck is going on before assuming ? No . because you’ve change . money cant buy happiness , money cant buy love , money cant buy family . i really pains me for all this to happen . i hope tht someday , they will stand in my shoe as well . to realise how much i’ve been through now .

as for him , i’m really thankful tht after so much stuffs are happening , he’s still here . although i’m unable to tell him what’s wrong and what’s happening , he still tried to make me smile . he knows i’ve been hiding so many stuffs , i just cant voice them out . i’ve no idea how i can put them into words . but i’m really grateful and i really appreciate it .

thank you baby <3