Awhile ago I just suffered a heartbreak that I thought I would not recover from. For the longest time, I held on to a toxic relationship that affected my self-esteem and self worth. From my memory, all our arguments stemmed from the involvement with him and other girls.
From frivolous text messages, to drinking sessions with those hot chicks whenever we quarrel to sleeping with another girl on the same bed when both of you were drunk. Yet I held on.
I constantly wondered if it was because I wasn’t good enough. I questioned my self worth and identity but I still cared.
At the end of the day, I find myself pathetically losing myself.
I am glad I have finally made the decision to move on, for I truly believe that if you truly love someone, you will not intentionally hurt him or her. And you don’t cheat on someone you love and expect the person to love you the same way again. It’s a choice not a mistake.
For any girl who is in such toxic relationship, I hope you have the courage to let go of those who have hurt you, and make room for those who actually deserves you and want to treat you well.
It’s quite unlikely me to share something so personal in this space, but I would urge you to think about your love today. For I hope that your partner is someone who pushes you to be better and bigger everyday.
What’s love to you? Share with me too.
With love, Jace
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