Recently, I had been down in the dumps for thankfully a short period only. After countless ranting (& crying) sessions with close friends and finally a chat with my sister who prayed for me, I was eventally enlightened.
The purpose of this blog entry is to share with those who might be going through the same issue. Some even on the brink of depression, I’ll be honest, I was sick of breaking down in private and nearly wanted to see a shrink.
It doesn’t matter if they are just jealous of you, wicked by nature or just downright delusional. These people are best out of your life for the sake of your mental, emotional and physical well-being. Often we are unable to distance ourselves from these toxic people as they could be your office co-workers, your neighbours or classmates etc. It would be absurb to quit a job, move house or switch schools in this scenerio.
Also, it’s always practical to note that toxic people are everywhere but you can do something about it. And this choice starts with you.
Initially, I was fueled by anger and rage, and I wanted so bad to get back at this person who had done something wrong but was too delusional to admit it. She even went round spreading rumours that I had backstabbed her. Carrying a baby also meant that I had gotten more emotional and irrational due to the hormonal changes.
However, as the wise saying goes “An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.” Revenge was not going to make me any happier. Why should I stoop to her immatured level and plot her downfall? I was getting weary with this battle that I felt like I was fighting alone.
Then, it seemed like God decided to impress upon me a blog entry which helped me tremandously. Wounded Warriors was the title of the post, and of course, this is a motivational entry that would help those who are fighting other kinds of battles on their own like illness or perhaps, a bad financial debt.
The blog entry shared a verse from the bible: Exodus 14:14 says “The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.” It reminded me that I could turn to God and unload this burden within me and let him deal with it. I did not need to deal with the anger and hatred daily that was eating me away. I could stop with the cursing and swearing which only made me more angry.
I won’t say that I had forgiven this person but not focusing on her has defintely made me a much happier person. I can now channel the energy that once was wasted on her to other people and things which are more deserving of my attention.
Out of sight, out of mind would be the best solution but I cannot make her vanish for good. So I would just have to learn to live with it and mature along the process.